Be strong

Everywhere I go, I see couples who are very sweet to each other, and I can't help but be quite bitter for them. It is nice to think that it is not Valentine's day everyday, or else, I would always feel the pain stabbing my heart. I can't help but wonder why romantic relationship seems to work out for them, but never for me. Questions like: have they loved and lost someone? have they cried themselves to sleep? have they equated love with hurt? have they found the right one? have they experienced chasing and begging for someone to come back to them? have they experienced that feeling when they cannot do anything for someone they love so much but to give him/her space because that is what he/she is asking? have they experienced that feeling of being alone, lonely, and broken? 

I say that love is the greatest thing that someone should never give up to. At the same time, it is the only thing that could break you into pieces and could also build you again into an even better person when you find the right one. 

I know that at this moment, all I can do is cry, and hope that someday love and happiness will find me. I can't make myself beg for someone to love me again if he has already gave up his love for me. I know that I messed up and made so much mistakes to him, but one thing that I could ever be proud of is that I did my best to love him, to accept all the hardships and sufferings that I have to go through just to love him. That even if I have to wait so many months for him, so many hours for his text replies which seem to last forever, I did my best to understand him. 

I also experienced waking up in the wee hours of the night, crying and wishing that the pain would go away and the sadness would leave me. It is also hard to forget him and pretend that I have moved on, when he is the only person who is constantly running into my mind and who is the only content of my broken heart. I would not want to find someone to mend my broken heart. All I know is that I need time to heal and move on. God has a way for me and those who are brokenhearted now to be happy someday. I do not want to rush things and patiently wait for the plans that He has for me. 

For those who are broken right now, may we realize that things happen for a reason. And that reason is only known by Him. It may have happened to teach us a lesson or to tell us that we can't always have what we want, that God has better plans for us. But I am happy that I knew my lessons as early as now. And maybe, I should just focus on my career, family and friends because love is just around the corner and if it's mine, it will find me.  

Life is too short to be miserable and to grieve. We should see the positive things in everyone and every situation no matter how painful life has become for us. Life is not just about happiness and success, we must know that we have to fall down so that we know how to stand up on our own feet. We will meet different people on our way to help us, to teach us lessons, to make us stronger and to love us. We are never alone because He is always there to guide us and pick us up when we are heavily laden. We should be strong that eventually, everything would be okay, and things will fall into their right places.